The Curse

2008-02-29T09:21:00.000-08:00

my sister is a fucking drama queen, stealer and a fucking bitch!!

2007-10-10T09:35:00.000-07:00

wadz the purpose of this if you have nothing to say, have a point of view or a stand.
low self-esteeem does not neccesarrily means critisizing own self.
questioning self dignity is not wad you shud do.
when ppl say something that you're not, dont keep objecting.
stop trying to be humble cause too much of it seems fake and disgusting.
take compliment as a compliment, not an insult.
stop self-flattery.
be contended to wad you have.
not having anione to like you doesnt mean your ugly.
stop saying you are ugly wen you're not.
if you are, stop saying you're hot.
dont let ego control you.
you control your ego.
dont critisize others wen you're lack at it yorself.
dont just understand but be understanding.
be a good listener.
listen and share opinions not to compare your life stories.
dont lie about your life.
dont make every single situation dramatic.
enough is enough.
truth hurts sometimes but lies hurts everytime.
think twice before acting/talking/doing things.
but dont think to much.
do not downgrade others just to make you look good.
respect others and others will respect you.
first have own self respect.
dont grow on one person's point of you.
live the future not grief for the pass.
dont let others judge you; you judge yourself.
make a choice, dont live on choices.
and stop discrimating yourself.
please have some dignity.
you are your own destiny...

2007-08-30T03:55:00.000-07:00

yes been long since i posted. i still havent watch harry potter yet. and i dun tink its showing in cinema anymore. sobz. jonathan suck to the core la. he is crazy. very dumb also. haha. he is having a concert on the 2nd september at 7.30pm, esplanade recital studio. if you are wondering wad kind of concert; its a CHINESE INSTRUMENTAL CONCERT BY NAFA chinese instrumentalist. he plays the RUAN! sounds like guitar but nicer. the ticket is at $15. if you want, can call me or him.. please do support this concert. [he force me to publicize]. jonathan is an idiot! and he can play the zhongRUAN...
to all friends out there..
if theres a conflict in your particular circle of frenz..
please get back together...
the devil is breaking you all apart...
its all a miscomunication...
forget it...
recuperate...
love one another...

2007-07-19T05:45:00.000-07:00

A Week In Hell

One day, a guy dies and finds himself in hell. As he is wallowing in despair, he has his first meeting with a demon.
Demon: Why so glum, chum?
Guy: What do you think? I'm in hell.
Demon: Hell's not so bad. We actually have a lot of fun down here. You a drinkin' man?
Guy: Sure, I love to drink.
Demon: Well, you're gonna love Mondays then.
On Mondays, that's all we do is drink. Whiskey, tequila, Guinness, wine coolers, diet Tab...we drink till we throw up and then we drink some more.
Guy: Gee, that sounds great.
Demon: You a smoker?
Guy: You better believe it.
Demon: All right! You're gonna love Tuesdays. We get the finest cigars from around the world and smoke our friggin' lungs out. If you get cancer, it's okay... you're already dead.
Guy: Golly!
Demon: I bet you like to gamble.
Guy: Yes, as a matter of fact I do.
Demon: Good, because Wednesday is gambling day. Craps, blackjack, horse races, you name it. We even opened up a pai gow poker table.
Guy: Gosh, I never played pai gow before...
Demon: Well now you can. You like to do drugs?
Guy: Yes, I love to do drugs. You don't mean...
Demon: That's right! Thursday is drug day. Help yourself to a great big bowl of crack. Smoke a doobie the size of a submarine. You can do all the drugs you want, and if you overdose, it's okay... you're already dead.
Guy: That's incredible! I never realized that hell was such a swingin' place!
Demon: You gay?
Guy: Uh, no.
Demon: Oooh , you're gonna hate Fridays.

2007-05-18T04:07:00.000-07:00

[CRYING].. don is gone. boo hoo. f**king sad. haizz.. i dunno whether we will still meet him or not. my heart is pierced..
your smile...
your cheeky look...
your baby face...
your super cool thai accent...
your knowledge in french...
your funny sense of humour...
your "hello im sam"...
and your presence that warmed me whenever youre around me...
talk to you soon DON..
au revoire mon cherie...
je vous aime....

2007-05-12T03:58:00.000-07:00

i love thai!!

2007-05-08T22:59:00.000-07:00

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2007-04-16T22:26:00.001-07:00

evangeline wong is leaving us for one month. sad leh. syf for choir is coming. dont forget to watch it. its at VCH. haven been blogging cos haven got much time. i have gotten a proper job now. meet us before you leave ok evan?.
enjoy your holidayz!!

2007-04-13T03:52:00.000-07:00

im quite dissapointe on how the band reacts to a post. why bother wad i said if you all think that you are good. if you have read the post with maturity and proper understanding, you wud understand that i did not actually criticise how you played. i just said that you shud not blame on others. dont you get it. yes i said you suck. im sorry for that. i was super frustrated. i care for the band as much as you all did. yes i agree if you all think i come back to comment and never help. cos wad can i help if its your own playing. you got tutors. i comment to make you realize that you can do things better. if you all want to hate me. fine. hate me for the right reasons. well i just want to say sorry if my post really hurt you that much. sorry for being an ass if you may say so. and sorry if my blogskin bother you all so much. thats why, hate me for the right reasons. thankz.

stressed out with life...

2007-04-12T07:21:00.000-07:00

CONGRATULATION westwood for maintaining silver!
was shock to see all the coral people there.
congrats mr.wong.
heading to MOS now.
haha bye...

by the way i would have not post the last post if you, coral people, have not said all those things ive heard. next time watch and choose your words carefully please...

2007-04-09T06:13:00.000-07:00

this week is the SYF week for BANDS. todays result is quite shocking. samuel's band got bronze; queenstown secondary. good bands shockingly got silver, drop from gold with honours. coral is tomoro. i am actually scared, cos they are aiming for gold but then there are a lot of good skul bands on the same day. maybe their chance of getting gold is gone. i hope they are lucky enough to get gold or at least maintain a silver. boys and girls please look at the conductor, relax, dun be nervous, dun forgot to BREATHE, enjoy the music you're playing, dun stress.
you can do it.
GOOD LUCK TO CORAL CONCERT BAND AND ALL OTHER BANDS THAT ARE TAKING PART IN THE COMPETITION.
i hope gold really goes to you...
dun expect to much, remember...

2007-04-03T23:36:00.000-07:00

i am so BORED. everyone seemz to be busy.
i went for job-hunting again yesterday. suppose to follow ozie to her work place for an interview. met up with her. she went for pedicure. then headed to city hall. have lunch. shop awhile. slack. met fadhillah. talk abit. then me and ozie went to the busstop to go to her work place. while on the way there, i saw this boutique with a sign on the window saying that they need worker. so i went in and ask whether a guy can work?. she said "erm why not try and apply then i will sent to the office to comfirm your position". so i applied. the place is a bit auntie-looking. but who cares, i need a job. after applying, we went to the bus stop. there i was half heartedly wanting to go for the interview at Oosh[ozie's work place]. then she started nagging at me for being indecisive and bla bla bla. i just follow her then still deciding. took the bus. stop at the destinate bus stop. and walk to the place. it was very nice and big. the place is somwhere near the botanic garden. waited for a while till is time for her to go to work; and i went off. ya i didnt go for the interview at Oosh. i took bus 7 back to bedok change to MRT to pasir ris. there i met the bunch of idiots. hahah. accompanied mr. wong for dinner. but we never eat. talk alot. warn you, there is alot of backstabbers in the band. i cant believe you all especially zul. tsk3. disappointment. then they went to mac for dinner. then somone was like discrimating my education. whatever. went to ben and jerry's after that. then everyone went home. left me alone. so i met a fren and went home. it was around 10pm when i reach home. my family still awake. my parents aren't talking to me. well as if it makes any difference.
watch tv till like 4am then went to sleep.
argh! im dying of boredom.
help me...

2007-04-02T01:03:00.000-07:00

hello. haven been blogging for 3 days now. im in skul now. evanz fone was confiscated by her mother. give me five babe!. nothing much have happen during the past few days. haven talk to my parents yet.
last saturday i went to an underaged party at mdm wong's with kel and steph. OMG. there were alot of underaged kids. this is my first time to an underaged party. haha. no alcohol. no smoking. it looks abit innocent with alot of NOT innocent kids. alot of chinese tho. most of them can't dance for nuts. its so funny. u shud have seen them. well the party was quite good, i think.
raihannah is in singapore now[dynaz cousin]. ya the whole family is here.
hmm.. actually yesterday me and dyna went for band rehearsal at mus'art. we were LATE. felt so embarassed. aniwaes they having performance at the esplanade on the 15th of april i guess. BEAUTIFUL SUNDAY. i dunno yet whether im performing. but dyna definitely not coz she didnt quite ask for the chance to perform. haiiz. the repertoire are quite sight-readable tho and fun.

im still bored with my life now. just came from job-hunting. didnt quite look for a job but ya i did. such a paradox.

waiting for time to pass..
wasting my time here..

2007-03-29T09:31:00.001-07:00

hey.. im so dead if i go home. my parents are super mad at me for stupid reasonz. ar wadeva.
i did go out today. haha. wanted to go to genting road to send uniform but then researching to how to even get there took a lot of time, so me and dyna went to mount pleasant hospital to fetch her cat which was warded for like a week now. and im actually abit scared of animals. so we enter and thr were like dogs everywhere. but luckily no animals came near me. so never mind. both of us started to conversate and never actually end our sentence. and we started laughing like crazy. shez MAD. went to her motherz shop to have like late lunch i guess. crap the whole time. bought otah and wen to her place. help her cousin in some project; making starz and cresentz. glitter was everywhere.
wen out for dessert with syara, jx, dyna and me. syara look like a MINAH. haha. well ate and waited fer idrus. but then jx and syara wen home ferst. idrus then came and left coz he wans to watch prison break. haha ok.
im still at dynaz place. damn scared to go home, like seriously.

i dunno wad my parents gonna do to me.
i may not live the next day.
all is in fate.
waiting for the minutes to pass for the right time to go back.
home? that is what i use to call it.
but now who knows.
i will go soon...
when they are all asleep...

2007-03-28T02:46:00.000-07:00

Still no phone. suckz mann.
went out with weikang, lian wei,and christoven yesterday. actually me and weikang was watching Turandot before meeting christoven. well lian wei turn up half way thru the show. NON-coincidentally me, weikang and lian wei wore GREEN. then lian wei and weikang was discussing bout "wad if christoven wears green ?". guess wad, christoven also wore green. WOW, green day for us. aniwaes the whole trip felt like evryone is bullying me la. well its dumb. they started with the euphonium thing AGAIN. then about work. then about future. i was so damn STRESSED out. whatever. i tink you can read weikangs blog if u want an elaborated story. the whole trip suppose to be a shopping spree but then it turns out like an eating spree. haha. weird. and ya they were thinking of goin Genting. im not goin; broke [grounded actually].
well today im stuck at home, nothing to do.
hooray for me.

come save me from this treacherous place...

2007-03-26T04:27:00.000-07:00

this is the SICKEST poetry i have ever read. i dun tink this is even a proper poem.
go ahead and read if you DARE...
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In a shopping mall
In a communal changing room
I saw him in his undies
So aged and frayed they were practically see through
And boy did I stare
Till he covered his cock with his hands
And went beet red
But later, out on the street
He asked if I'd like to meet up for a drink
And the only thought I could think
Was yes please, one teaspoon
Of fresh cream would donicely thank you
Later, in bed
I told him of the thoughts
that had filled my head
And he smiled and said
'I know', I was thinking
About drinking
you too.

hmmm.. abit weird..
disgusting...

2007-03-26T02:20:00.000-07:00

haha.. guess what. i don't have a phone now. wad the fuck!.
well nvm. my last post suppose to be longer but i dunno why the stupid comp wont post the whole thing. ARGH.. never mind.
i HATE my life.
i HATE my parents.
i HATE my brother.
i HATE that fucker.
i HATE that fucking bitch.
i HATE the betrayer.
i HATE crying.
i HATE almost evreything.
but somhow i LOVE you.
not just any YOU.
its just you..
bored to death right now with nothing to do..
the holidayz..

2007-03-23T01:25:00.001-07:00

yeah.. My bestfriend just broke up wit HER girlfren. haha.
we are ALL happy for you! .. At last you are free to rome around.
ya shez a girl; bisexual.

Yesterday we watch 300, like again. Was quite fun. then i went for rehearsal at the esplanade. WASTE of time mann. we all came at SEVEN and did abit of warm up. Then we did some sitting arrangement along the corridor, sing a few songs. then back to our room. We waited and waited and waited. talk lots of crap in the room waiting for our turn. so BORING. then we all went to the green room to bore ourselvez again. Chat bits here and there. i almost fall asleep. its been nearly 2 and a half hours of waiting. Wad the hell is the orchestra doing??. Mass orgy?? wtf. then the announcement came," CAN ALL THE CHORUS MEMBERS ASSEMBLE AT THE CONCERT HALL NOW?". At last. i bet that the orchestra members had a fair share of orgasm, that's why now they need the chorus members. went up and saw that the orchestra people having their break. before going in the hall, we all saw food on the table. So.. most of the chorus members wanted to get a taste of the puffs and cakes. before any of us took anything on the table. This fucking BITCH started shouting “THE FOOD IS ONLY FOR THE ORCHESTRA MEMBERS!". Like wad the hell. we waited for you idiots to finish your orgy that has wasted our precious time, treated like we are some piece of shit that you can play around with, think that we singers are useless and mean nothing to the music world (halo, some of us are also instrumentalist ok?), and now you are telling us that the food on the table is only for you all?! there is like a lot la on the table. go and DIE you mother-fucking bitch!. now i know that some of the orchestra players are actually greedy PIGS in mask of a human. anyway rehearsal started. the orchestra is so LOUD!. how loud they expect us chorus to sing?. Can’t you all just play softer? you think you all very good izit?. try being in our shoes and we play your instrument at FORTISSISSIMO. hah. i bet we can’t even hear a single sound from your mouth, you useless piece of shit. after like a 30 minutes or so. the chorus gets to go. the chorus director talk abit on each songs then arrange some sitting plans (because some ahpek is making a fuss on the sitting arrangement) and then we were dismiss like at 10 plus plus. Ha-ha. this is the best part is, we chorus member ate all of your food that you stupid greedy orchestra idiots left on the table. now it is EMPTY. i should have waited to see the reaction on your fugly faces went you all found out that the food is gone. but i have enuf of waiting for you amateurs. we all laugh and ate happily away...
tonightz the concert. i so cant wait to see those "ANIMALS TAMED TO PLAY INSTRUMENTS".
you will get it from us bitch!!

2007-03-20T14:55:00.000-07:00

Fiinally it's over. PS exam was yesterday. i did really really BAD and i know coz i never felt so shitty wen playing my instrument except for yesterday at 4pm DURING THE EXAM!!.
pieces i played was horibble; excerpts was abit better. wads the point mann.
my condition at that time: its like rain was showering heavily on me.
wahlau i tink its a cursed year for me. everything i do seems to go wrong.
what the hell.
i seriously lost my mood from yesterday till now. kept thinking of my exam. hah. i know i can do better. but too bad theres only one chance.
it was bad, really really bad.
and i dunno why...

2007-03-16T06:07:00.000-07:00

i have NO pianist.
life sucks.
exam in four dayz time.
essay not complete.

well wadeva happens happens.

whats the used of having so much pianist in skul for?

i wonder...